Twilight is an invigorating period of the day for me. For the past two decades it has proven antidote to the anticipation of her sight. She’s long in repose upon my late arrival. Yet never once I’ve missed the tokens of her affection left about disclosing she’s missed a kissed goodnight. I haste through musts and what-nots as not to squander precious new memories. See, for the past two decades I’ve engaged in nightly explorations of her sleeping body, admiring the very same lines, curves and shapes as if the very first time… enjoying the obstacles and chances presented by moonlight creeping through the window. She’s become an alluring stranger I must revere while asleep. I cannot and will not stop looking at her. I have, too, in as many nights as I’ve spent staring at her, wondered if she would scare off knowing I struggle to move my away from her? Would she sneak away during daylight were she to learn about my nightly debauchery?
A smile, there is no time to distract… my sight follows her flanks down to the pelvis where her obliques turn inwards into the lines that meet her privacy. She sleeps in the nude: a pledge she made long ago to always be there for me if so I wished to feel her embrace.
Some nights she mumbles requests to shut the curtains to prevent direct moonlight from interrupting her sleep, which I refuse with fear that the darkness will steal memories meant for me. She too, talks in her sleep. Something to cherish because of the reaction of her skin contracting around the trajectory of my finger from her navel to her inner thighs. A strategy that soundly hushes her back to sleep.
Where I a lewd man, more than just crafting memories through the darkness she’d feel. Perhaps a night or two, admittedly so, she’s felt the wicked of my actions when I’ve dared to do more than just memorize the details of her physique.
She wasn’t made like the rest of everyone else. No, sir no. Dare it be said that she must have been crafted by my very self. She is to me what colour is to flowers, to roses, azaleas, gardenias, lilies: all giving sight a reason to see.
Some nights, a double of Gorge T Staggs accompanies me for an hour or so until I savor every last drop of of whiskey while standing at the frame of the door enjoying her silhouette. Most nights, the nights that have come to consume all reason, she sleeps on her side, back facing the door, right leg bent over and across her left leg. Curves from her shoulders down to her waist rise again towards her hip… ah, but I’m no musician that obstructs emotions with aggressive overindulgence. She, she’s to be consumed with the dexterity of time and patience. Someone who can understand the contours of her body strumming together endless riffs and melodies of lust.
She lures me into journeys that shape into lines, mounds, and valley of the sun with each pulse within her chest. I’m as eager to awaken her as I am to watch her peacefully asleep. So I watch her; I watch her sleep night and again, more times than not until the sun comes up. I don’t miss a breath, yet during weakened moments I purposely awaken her purely to watch new shapes emerge from her body.
“Please wake up… share a drink,” I request.
It’s past midnight. Go to sleep. Please honey, I have an early morning,” is her response.
Quickly falling back asleep.
Is it selfish to wake her? To wake her just to watch the slow ascent of my friend Staggs towards her lips? To watch the three finger tumbler surrender upon her touch? Her head tilt and the liquid poor gently into her mouth?
At night sounds grow louder than any other time. I hear her lips grasp the glass, the rush of liquid spill into her mouth, move about her tongue, to quickly descent into her stomach after which she’ll press gently against my chest, steals a kiss, turns and returns between the sheets.
So I watch while she sleeps. Every night I watch her sleep, listening to air escaping her lungs as well as hustling in… wondering if I’m in her dreams.